Three glasses of Pellegrino and 3 sugar free Jellos are what it takes to get me through the night without cheating. And yes, I have to fight the urge to buy some ice cream and cookies every single night. Not during the day, daytime = super easy for me. It’s the evenings that kill me. Why is it so damned hard to not eat well only at night? Such a struggle, but I will prevail.
It may be a part of my issues with sensitivity to light, sound, etc. I try to wind down with tv but sometimes it is too loud even though I bring the volume to almost nothing. Ever since I was pregant with my little one, I was very sensitive to sound, light and smells. And it never went away. It’s not as bad, but worse than pre pregnancy.
I notice that when I am stressed, it worsens. I also noticed that I cannot be in a walmart or target for too long. The rows and rows of stuff attack my senses. Too much stimuli. It happens at malls as well. At first, I like it but in a matter of minutes it’s unbearable. And restaurants are touch and go. There are times when I can’t stand it and I can hear every conversation around our table. I hear people arguing, mothers cajoling their kids to eat, teenagers sulking, couples talking sweetly and people trying to quietly argue. It’s pretty crazy sometimes. The worst one was at the food court at the mall during Christmas. Never again.
I have read up a little bit about this, but most of the things I read lead to autism, and I seriously doubt I’m anywhere on the spectrum. Then again, I’m not a professional so I am not 100%.
So back to the night time issues. I drink a ton of water to quiet my hunger, but it makes me pee like 10 times per night. Very annoying to try to sleep when you constantly have to pee. It’s pretty ridiculous how hard I have to work at this. It’s kind of comical.
I need to surf the blogosphere to find similarly challenged folk. I know they’re out there.